Was at uncle philip hse yest. Went over to finalise the things to be bought for the class chalet. I must say philip has put in alot of effort for tis gathering!! so i really hope all my class peepz do turn up!! Last nite, before i went to sleep i juz happen to thing abt tis.. sometimes i wonder, who are the importent ppl in life for me.. many ppl will say their family first, but as for me i juz cant seem to accept tat.. i mean lik i really do wan to change my mindset!! i wanna try to love my family and giv them the most importence..As for tat to happen i would first hav to accept my dad for wat he has been doin for me and my family now and also forgive him for the rubbish he has done in the past.. watever is it, i can only forgive the most, but i can never seem to forget!! Ive seen my mum suffered alot in the past, and i don ever wish her to be treated the same again!!
All my 18 years of life, ive been only thinking abt myself and showed more care for my frens rather then my family... i tried living juz for myself, but it did not work out tat well!! there are times my frens gave me the most happiest memories and the most sadest memories too!! to tell the truth i hav more sad memories then happier ones!! but im kinda gettin use to such stuff!!
everything tat happened to be me, was juz a turn back to me.. i did try to make myself happy and appriciate life, wid the ppl arnd me!! but i realise tat i can never seem to fulfil tat wish..
So nw, i tell myself, nt to be self fish and juz thing abt my life alone.. ive decided to change my attiude and try showin more concern to the importent ppl in my life! i wanna live my life for the happiness of others nw, and maybe tis may werk out, rather then, juz lookin arnd for happiness for myself which din seem to werk out tat well!!
If i see my loved ones happy, tats when im really feeling happy for them as well for myself..TC all!!

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